We all want a happy life. But it is essential to understand that happiness cannot be forced; it will come when you are in the right place at the right time doing the right things. If you are not living in alignment with your core values, happiness can't get into your life. However, nobody said that you couldn't attract happiness.
"Attract happiness? How is that even possible?"
Around 20 years back, I was the actual personification of a lost soul, to the extent that I had accepted unhappiness to be my destiny. I went from abusive childhood to an even more abusive marriage, not supported by my parents, and was so isolated from the world that having friends was a luxury I was unaware of.
My mother came from a different world where the son was a gift and the daughter is a liability. She was disappointed when she gave birth to me- a girl. She couldn’t connect with me and my absentee father was never around. My savior came in yellow robes while I was sitting at a Ma Kali temple at an age I don't remember. All I remember was Guruji smiling at me and taking me under his wing. I was practically raised in the temple under the guidance of Ma Kali and Guruji; I learned about sastras and Vedas. Guruji passed away when I was in 8th grade, and instead of going back to my parents, I decided to go live with my sister and her husband. One of the worst mistakes of my life! I won't go into the details, but I was sexually abused by my sister's husband and was thrown out when I told my sister about the abuse.
From there, I was a vagabond, sleeping on bus stands and roadside for a while. Once I was back in my senses, I went back to school and continued with the bit of savings that Guruji had left me.
In my 10th standard, I found a grotto where I met a Father who took me to the church; he taught me about Jesus and his healing abilities. So far in my life, I had only learned about Hinduism; witnessing Christianity confused me because while the end goal was similar, the rituals were very different. I dug deep, and Father helped me, not only with teaching me about Jesus and his healings but even with my schooling.
In 11th standard, I met the love of my life but didn't start dating for another two years. We both loved each other dearly, and I was embraced by his family too. For the first time, I felt the warmth of parental love. One day while returning from a picnic, he and I met with a car accident, he died on the spot, and I was in a coma for six months. When I woke up, I realized that I was alone again and had to carry on without him. It shattered me.
I questioned the existence of God; I stopped praying, going to the temple or church. I wanted to run away from where I was, so I dug myself into studying, hoping to leave all my struggles behind with money. With the help of the Father and my own determination, I got a scholarship to ACCA, London.
Right before I was about to leave the country, I met my future husband. We went to London together and got pregnant in a few months. We fought a lot because I accused him of coming in between my ambition, and he resented me for it. Somehow we decided to come back to India and live with his very demanding parents.
Amidst all this, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, who brought a flicker of hope to my life. I had a sense of purpose; I would live to provide a happy life for this girl. Our fights worsened, and he demanded monetary remuneration for taking care of our baby.
To provide for my daughter, I found a job in Mumbai, and I moved there, leaving my three-year daughter with her Father for a few weeks. That's when my daughter fell sick, so much so that the doctors gave up. I could see that the small flame of hope in my eyes was in danger, and if I could not keep my child safe, my life would be worthless. But what could I do? The doctors asked us to pray, and pray I did.
I sat next to her hospital bed, shedding tears and praying to Ma Durga and Ma kali, asking for her health. I had a revelation about Guruji and Father asking me to keep faith in God. I did deep sadhana almost the entire night, and when my body couldn't keep up anymore, I kept my faith in the universe and let my eyes shut. When I woke up, my daughter was miraculously doing a lot better, and doctors advised that she was out of danger.
After a couple of years, I found the strength to separate from my husband and got 50% custody of my daughter. However, it was 50% on paper because when I went to see my daughter, the husband shut the door on my face. After so many court cases, I was allowed to meet my daughter a few times in return for financial favors to my ex-husband's family, which was very difficult since I was not earning a lot. I had to give up not on my daughter but on trying to meet her.
I moved to Pune for a job when a work colleague invited me to her house for dinner. The head of her family was a maollim who enlightened me towards Islam and gifted me a Quran written in Hindi. With whatever little I earned, I started donating to temples, churches, and now even Muslim dargahs. At this point, I was enlightened about the three major religions of the world. The crux of all these religions was to keep faith in the higher power and let the chips fall where they may.
Things were changing for me; while I was still failing in finding good relationships, I was doing well at my job and was sent to the US for a project. It was a life-altering experience; I traveled the countryside on weekends, meeting new people and learning more spirituality. I dug deep into the world of spirituality, learned multiple aspects of it, received several certifications, and more. During this time, I learned three things about spirituality:
Spirituality was the most misunderstood thing.
Spirituality is not just meeting your higher consciousness but also gaining wisdom and your perspective and potential.
Spirituality is for you to understand your soul's purpose in life and the karmas you are meant to do in your birth.
The more I learned from spiritual experiences, the more I realized I was jumping from one toxic relationship to another, never giving myself time to heal and think positively. Every time I was deceived in a relationship, the feeling that all humans are cheats was engraved in me. That is exactly was I was unconsciously manifesting; I was attracting suffering, and it had become a vicious cycle. I started believing that I was supposed to have a life of struggle and misery.
One day, deep in my sorrow, helpless, I had no choice but to give up! Accepting that it couldn't get worse than this, I decided to let go. Let go of my sufferings and with a resolve to accept happiness. This realization is what brought me to the gates of the Law of Attraction. My sufferings stopped the moment I started self-realizing and the laws of the universe and started liberating. I surrendered to spirituality; I resigned myself to the knowledge I gained; I resigned myself to the universe.
That's how I stumbled upon the truth about the Law of Attraction. That's the day I actually began my spiritual journey, and I haven't looked back since then. Over the next few years, I devoured books that taught me more about the Law of Attraction. I also visited several Law of Attraction gurus who taught me various methods of truly understanding how to master LOA and use it to bring more good into this world. I finally understood the meaning of "Attracting Happiness."
I was finally content with my life. My happiness didn't depend on my past, my present, or my future.
And I realized my true purpose on this planet.
I realized that I was wasting my time working in the corporate world because I knew my calling was spreading spirituality like my Guruji, the Father who supported me, and the Moaalim who enlightened me. I need to spread the truth about spirituality to help other people achieve tranquility as I did.
Continuing on that path, I established my company Heal Your Subconscious (HYS), in 2019. With HYS, I offer holistic healing through path-breaking psychological techniques in Mindfulness Coaching, Law Of Attraction, and other healing services like Reiki, Lama Fera, Tarot card reading, angel therapy, and more.
As a part of the same, I am also conducting an in-depth workshop about the Law of Attraction helping you transform life and
manifest abundance for Rs 449/-.
If it were up to me, I would do it for free, but I need to sustain my business. I hope you will support me spread happiness and help my business at the same time.
When is the workshop happening?
Saturday 30th October 2021 at 4 pm IST
Where is the workshop happening?
LIVE Private Online Meeting
What are fees?
INR 499 only
For more information about me and the workshop, click here.
About Poonam Dutta
Poonam Dutta, also known as Satyamshakti, is a proficient and experienced spiritual healer and LOA teacher. Her ideology revolves around the idea that our subconscious mind is the key to living a fuller and more healthy life and understanding that anyone can manifest the life they truly desire.